Constantly

I don’t even know what to say anymore. Constantly think I’m getting better but then crash and burn. What should I do?? I thought I passed my assignments but failed. Constantly. Failing things I thought I passed. I asked Ryo for one her assignments so I could fill in some blanks and she has done so much and I know I’m going to fail but I don’t even know what to do anymore. I hate this course but I’m only here for her and so I can postpone my life by another year. Everything is just too much. Constantly getting worse. Constantly. Never getting better. Never will. Don’t deserve it. Other people are worse so why should I complain? I’ve got a roof over my head. I need to shut up or jump off. One or the other. I just want to sleep for a month. Think that’s called a coma but oh well. That or death sounds dope.