48 hours woohoo

So, in like 10 minutes, it would have been 48 hours since I have eaten anything. I am so proud. On Wednesday, Ryo’s mum got me a McDonald’s and mum cooked me some rice and then I went 41 hours without eating but then went home and mum cooked a roast dinner. I’m like thanks mum. Most of the time she never cooks and the one time I start to restrict again, she cooks like ahh. Then I ate Friday at lunch and some snacks at home. Then! I have now gone 48 hours without eating a single thing. I have had coffee and liquids but nothing major. It’s taking me so long to write this because I keep getting distracted. When I started it was 10 minutes to go but now its been officially 48 hours! Woo. I told Nay that I would like to be under 8 stone by the end of the year and now she’s going on about that’s unhealthy, skinny isn’t flattering and I’m like. Hun. I have been bullied for the way I look for ages. I hate myself and how I look so if I want to do something – lose weight – to change how I feel, and STILL BE FUCKING HEALTHY, then what is it to you! Ugh. In the end, I would like to be like under 7 stone (like 6st 10lbs) but I know it won’t happen overnight. About to treat myself to some noodles, maybe some jam on toast and crisps (depending how hungry I am since I haven’t been that hungry the last two days, a few moments of hunger but then left after like 5 minutes so eh). Then I’ll take some vitamins to help me shit out everything tomorrow. Afterwards, I will finish my assignment and have another shower since my hair is super greasy again like no. Can you not?