SNOWDAYSNOWDAYSNOWDAY

SNOW DAY! Today was the first day of March. March 1st.... and we had a snow day!! There are like several inches of snow outside and I’m loving it. Me and Kai went out sledging and playing in the snow and then we came back to my house and watched impractical jokers for like an hour. The puppies are super noisy today. Pretty sure it’s one of the black ones who keep yowling. School texted me saying they are closed today (and tomorrow) but I got the text at 8:10 and I arrive at Yeovil then so I would have been fucked. Glad I didn’t go in. Plus Mel can’t be mad at me since nobody went in today hehe. Marley won’t go outside because of the snow... so she peed on the floor in the living room and the rug and pooped on it as well. Like thanks love. Could have done it in the kitchen but never mind Erm... my happiness didn’t last long. It never does. Mum came home. I told her about what happened with Marley and tommy - how Marley pood and pissed on the living room mat, tommy was sick in the living room and tommy peed on Marley’s new cage thing - and she’s blaming me for everything as usual. Then she told me to walk Marley to get her to pee and wee which worked but then I brought snow into the house as it’s quite high outside our house. She yelled at me for that. You know, I was actually starting to think that I wouldn’t need to cut. That I could throw away my razor and think happy thoughts and I wouldn’t be sad again. How fucking delusional. I’m honestly thinking she’s messed up or something. She seems to keep forgetting I’m still a child. A young adult yes, but still a child. By my age, she had a kid and no qualifications. I don’t have the same life experiences as her. I didn’t sleep around and ruin my own life at 15. Yet I’m the stupid one. She’s the parent. She should help me and not make me cut myself when she’s angry. I’ll probably end up crying myself to sleep again while Tommy is pressuring my newly cut wounds. But hey! More pain!