I need to stop fucking things up

Nay posted on her story and made it custom so I couldn't see it. She said it was so Kieran didn't see it but I freaked out and had a mini argument. I need to stop fucking things up with her. She's been a great friend even when I have been a total bitch. I just hope she doesn't hate me. Tomorrow, I'm going to try and be a better person. I really will. Mindfulness apps will be downloaded and meditating will be done. I need to get better. Not just for her, but for everyone in my life. I've also taken a break from social media. I'm still doing streaks but nobody but Nay will know that. Also Oli has unfriended me - at least he has - on snapchat but I don't care. It's not his opinion I care about. On a random topic, I hate peeing. Weird I know but hear me out. It's such a long and tedious thing. It's not long enough to play a game or watch a video like pooping, but it takes up time and when the pee doesn't come out fast enough. Something I feel strongly about but is weird I know. Just don't like it.