Pasta and Muffins

I don't really know how I feel today. A rollercoaster of emotions. I made pasta and muffins today. Yay. I'm super tired now. I generally feel like shit today. Cut again last night. Didn't really hurt. I guess I'm guess I'n numb to it now. I didn't end up sleeping until 1am so woke at 12pm today whoops. My phone battery is kinda fucked but Apple admits that their fault so meh. I need to look up some apprenticeships since I'm probably going to quit college since I really don't care anymore. I'm probably gonna fail so what's the point? I did leave the house for the first time actually today. I don't count NYE as I went to my friends house not out out. I may walk to Donyatt tomorrow, I don't know. That's it really. Nothing else really happened. Ryona has some bad lungs, so she is probably going to be admitted back to hospital again. I hope she is better soon. She's the only friend I really have in my classes... if she goes, I will feel even worse and not wanna try anymore. I don't wanna try anyway but I guess having a friend helps you be fake happy. I guess, right?